u know how on some days, u get out of bed... and then u just feel happy? there is no logical explaination why u're happy. u just are. simple as that. u feel elated.... u feel as if ur life is perfect (even tho life in nv perfect... but being an idealist... it's as good as it gets....) all that fills ur mind are happy thots, smiling faces of family and frens, even the littlest things can get u grinning like an idiot.

then u get out of bed... and then u go outside... and the world is still perfect. hell even the weeds look absolutely beautiful. u feel complete... fulfilled. (as compared to the usual emptiness) u walk along the streets with a little bounce to ur steps. u're radiating with radiance... hahah lame i know.. pple ard feel that u're happy and then they become happy too!

and when u go to bed at night, u are still happy. all day long, happy thots, memories running thru ur head makes u just grateful that u got to have them and that u're alive. but then, there is this fear that when u wake up the next morn, eveything will be back to normal... there won't be anymore of this 'sunshine' days.

guess ur moods are like sort of a curve... it goes up... way up high and then u'll eventually hit the lowest pt of the curve (sounds like maths) and then the rest of the times.. u're hovering in the middle. well at least there are as much high pts as there are low.. so we are all not totally sad cases. all of us are lone islands.... just that some islands are luckier than others.. having other islands near them.. so if they are like bored, they can just paddle their boats over for some good ol' company...

after typing this... i realised that i haven't had a 'sunshine' day in a while... correction in a VERY LONG WHILE... i wonder when is my 'sunshine' day going to come.. is it coming soon? meanwhile... i shall just sit and wait for it to come i guess...